From me your second space

 

Khoirul Triann

Hi, how are you today?

Are there any wounds that I need to heal again?

Relax, you don't have to feel uncomfortable about it.

Even if you come whenever you need me, won't I always be there for you?

So, what other wounds haven't healed yet?

Every day, you know

Every day I just wait

I wonder when you can be completely for me

All this time, I've always been the medicine.

Without you realizing it, you yourself are the one who caused me the greatest pain.

Every time your wounds flare up

I always give it my all

As much as I can, even as much as I can

Without you realizing, I myself am not whole

I'm the one who always gets hurt every time I try to heal you

Then when your wound heals, you won't be looking for me anymore

But someone who is the source of your wounds

Sometimes I wonder

You are either good or stupid

I was the one who made you recover, but he's still the one you chose

I'm also surprised with myself, am I too good or too stupid?

How can I always be there for people who only use me as a second space?

I have to admit maybe I'm stupid

Stupid for expecting you every day

While reality always slaps me that I am actually not the person he expected.

It's not me

And once again, it's not me.

You can come to me whenever your wounds flare up, but can I come to you whenever I just need a friend to talk to?

You can freely make me an escape

So, can I make you the target for my excessive running?

Yes, maybe I ran too fast, but my goal was not there.

I am always your home, but you don't make me your home.

So, what am I really?

Just your a good listener?

Or is it just a temporary remedy for my wounds?

Honestly, I'm tired of being medicine for someone who doesn't want to recover from the wounds he caused himself.

Meanwhile, the person who became the medicine turned out to be someone who was in dire need of treatment.

If your wounds can heal every time you come to me, then what about mine?

How do you feel about someone who is just your second space?

You never understood this, did you?

Because you know, I'm the only one you can always rely on

You're confused, right? Where else are you going to run to when I'm gone?

Yes, you should know

That there will come a day when maybe I'm too tired for this role.

And I might give up at any time

Choosing to let you get hurt by him

Until one day when you look for me again, I'm trying to make peace with myself because I was too stupid to stay here.

One day you will understand that it turns out that I am the only one who understands you the most and that I am the only one who understands how to cure you.

Then when you understand that

Believe me, my hug will still have the same feeling

My care will not go away, even though in the end I know, you will go too